christmas

Ok so I spent Christmas in NC I loved every moment of it. It was beautiful weather it was a lovely 60 degrees. It did not get cold until I came back up here. UGH it sucked as soon as I hit WV.

So anyway.....I texted him on Christmas night it was a lengthy conversation. I spent that night asking him why me.
our convo
why me? why not her?

huh what do you mean?

Why do you talk to me and not her? I like our convos but I am just confused. If you love her like you say you do then you shouldnt want to talk to me or be with me.

I do talk to her. After I finish up in the basement doing my thing I go upstairs and we watch tv and talk.

So whats the problem?

I dont see her the same way I used to....She gained weight, she can't keep up in doing things anymore. Her weight has caused knee issues.

So you dont want to be with her anymore because of her looks?

No thats not what I meant. I mean to say that she doesnt treat me the same as she used to. When I got laid off she treated me like her servant. I was disrespected by that. She emasculated me.

Ok well Im sorry that she did that to you. I don't get why you lied to me. I am confused about that. I am also confused about what may be true. I just don't understand that.

I am sorry that I have upset you.....

Stop saying your sorry

That was the end of our convo. I can't stand that crap. I hate when people say they are sorry all the time. Thats all he says to me. I'm sorry for lying..... I'm sorry for this..... I'm sorry for that.... UGH stop being sorry already.

Ok now on to something else. I have swollen ankles. I mean really swollen...I am laying up in the bed until I fall asleep again. I was sound asleep until my work phone rang and I was jolted awake I felt all out of it too. It was weird. really weird. Now I am laying here and listening to the phone go off. He is texting me.

Anyway we are not going to run to the phone. I was asked a question yesterday by the family... If you could confront the one person that you felt like made your life difficult who would that be and what would you say???? lol My response I dont really know her and dont want to but I would punch that bitch in the mouth and then punch him in the mouth and tell them both to kiss my ass....