randomness

Have you ever thought about how life can change quickly? For instance a few years ago I was trying to find myself. I was involved in the BDSM lifestyle. I was involved with a guy that was emotionally withdrawn. I ended my relationship with him only to become single for a time and leave the BDSM lifestyle. I am now involved with a married man.

I feel like so much of my life has been full of bullshit. You know I always thought when I hit 26 I would be married with a PhD in psychology. I was gonna have 4 kids and have the house the dog the husband. Yet here I am not married with one kid. No house no dog no husband. Which means right now my life is in the bad place. I have to turn it around I just don't know how. I just I have no clue how to turn it around. Don't get me wrong I have a good job. I love my job. I just want out of this crappy circle I am trapped in.