green eyed monster

You know what I find to be the most difficult part of being in a relationship. Well a normal relationship its the communication part. In what ever it is that we have its the part of sharing whats bothering me. How do you tell this person that your upset because they left their phone at home and since they did that they couldnt talk to you. It made me angry. Really angry. Then I started thinking well i have no hold or connections to him. So what if he left his phone at home. So what if i dont like him being in the same room as her so what. I mean I came to the realization today that what i want doesnt really matter anymore. Im not all that sure it mattered in the first place. I just get so angry sometimes. I wish things were different. I wish he would leave if he did then what. I would then have to change how I am. I would have to be more aware of him. Not like Im not but I would have to be more on my game than I tend to be now. Would that suck not really. I just am so angry. I mean really angry.